Wednesday, December 31

a little too much...

do u know the feeling?
it is as if . . .
when we see a car accident by the side of the road, but we can't seem to tear our eyes away from it? and as the terrible, tragic scene unfolds, i just cant help myself...

there is pain from just plain watching, yet i cant seem to remove my attention...
why is that?

why, do i continue to observe something that seems so painful, so sad...and, to make matters worse; i know, i can be terribly sensitive.
its hard to watch, but i do it anyway....
it has become a reflex of mine, a habit, even.


there was once a period, where i thought i wouldn't want to take everything so seriously. but, i have learned that it is a nearly impossible feat.
life is so short and fleeting, and i want to fill mine with passion. my passion happens to be making the world a better place, no matter how small the effort;)


i think too much.
i ask too many questions.
i feel abit too much as well.

i wonder, can i be cured?

Monday, December 15

another well-deserved photo upd8, so u wont totally despise me for my gnarly postss~

Suryanto's 2*th birthday celebration @ Belgian Beer Cafe, Eureka Towers & VII~~ [14112008]


Ruth, me and Hui San~

the birthday boy! making his birthday wish



a group picture outside~^^

me and Hui San + Darren

Breakfast Pyjamas party @ Carlton Gardens [06122008]



Melissa, me and Ethan




Happy Couple 1: Bryan + Melissa





happie feet:)


girls^.^

oh. my. goodness....

happiness is meant to be sought after. i am seeking my happiness. my pure, unadulterated bliss.

i believe, that was an affirmative.




and she smiled from her <3

Thursday, December 11

please ignore me.

rain, rain and more rain...or so the forecast predicts for the rest of the few days ahead.

well, it's not really that i hate the rain or anything...except that it hinders or 'out-and-abouts' :(
ohh wells, so our project is well and truly under way...and maybe thats why, it seems as if time is just whizzing by recently. or have i grown too accustomed to taking my own sweet time that i have spent all of it doing little of anything? *ponders*

today....is just one of those days.
a day when one wakes up and questions one's self;

why? why is my skin so imperfect? why is my complexion not flawless?

why is my eyes even smaller than it used to be? why is the skin around still icky and peeling?

why am i so round? why is my face so immensely heinous?

why am i not skinny? why am i so * * * ?


::shakes head in disappointment:: talk about low self-esteem...le sigh

Saturday, December 6

joyeux anniversaire, mon Janice~~!

ouch....my eyes still haven't recovered yet....:(
anyways, its my dearest darling not-quite-a-baby-anymore sister, Janice's birthday today~~~~~ gosh, jie jie misses u so unbelievably much! *le sigh*
hope you have a gr8 celebration @ Pavillion, and a grand ball of a sleepover...even though, it wouldnt be half as fun without me there;p
well, i just came to a conclusion rather recently, that my life is just almost very nearly perfect:) hahahh...why, almost? because i believe that in reality, perfection is pretty darn unattainable (see....and people say i'm hard to please! ::rolls eyes::)
i have my super parents, who have given me the opportunity and space to grow and test my boundaries, and are supporting me in every way imaginable at a time when i needed it most.
i have my three incredibly different, yet sweet sisters.
and of course, my amazing bunch of good friends, right here in Melbourne & from Sayfol.
i feel so grateful and happy to be so incredibly blessed.
so, i'm trying....trying to do my very best to stay strong, and be optimistic. To persevere through these so-called rough times. To strive hard toward achieving what I really want in life. To remember to be grateful for all the wonderful things I have, and never take things for granted.

Tuesday, December 2

h o m e s i c k

home home home home...
is where my <3 is.

i miss KL so much...its sickening, and i think, im even tired of whining to myself about it =.="

okaii, i am ready to admit defeat,
i want to go home...

Daddy~~~ i want to come home!

if only, i could just say so :(